The most active page on this site for several months now has been the comment section to a Randy Prozac (aka Goat Worship) post.
It has been alleged that Randy had actually died some months ago. A newspaper clipping of his demise surfaced, and a mysterious girl named Britney Morgue was said to have taken over his website, which thankfully has remained fully functional and even occasionally updated.
While rumors that he had possibly faked his own death and was perhaps institutionalized were also suggested, it seemed many were convinced that Prozac did indeed exit stage left. Sadly it appeared no more works would surface, and many were crossing their fingers, hoping that Britney would at least keep the remaining ship afloat.
Odd back and forth comments have become a daily occurrence in the last few months which only fueled the mystery further.
“honestly, when i come to the Internet, i expect to find The Truth, and to see this level of obfuscation is just terribly disappointing.
i expect to find much more openness and transparency from a website that has clowns masturbating in their own puke.
i don’t think i will ever have the same faith in comments again.”
Today though, it appears as if Randy has stepped forward. Not only does he declare he’s still here (alive), but in extremely rare form he tilts the mask up and takes a few moments to explain the origins and motivations of his massive collection of work, both as a member of the video art group Goat Worship and his solo absurdist video projects that have followed.
For those that don’t know (and unfortunately, not to mention shamefully, this includes many, so-called, underground and experimental film curators) Randy Prozac and his former project Goat Worship, have put out some of the strongest underground absurdist cinema in the past decade, which in turn Randy has archived while adding new works, all available to view on his website SentimentalCorp.org . The website alone is arguably one of the best personal film sites in internet existence with it’s self hosted videos, interesting-engaging and mysterious navigations, as well as NO youtubes, NO vimeos, and thank god no stupid ass “facebook/twitter/tumblr” I-“cons” for the delusions of social misery-media “glory”.
To put it another way, if people still cared about art, specifically current art in the subversive vein, Prozac would have been celebrated a lot more through alternative media, articles, interviews, and screening requests. But we live in a dark period where most of the celebrated subversives of the past now spend more time curating their persona on facebook rather than creating new works or seeking out true underground works of others.
It’s perhaps because of this black-out that Prozac’s sudden surfacing is a rarity, as well as a relief for his well being, even despite his new found flip off to still admirers of his work.
And having said this, his statement below signifies a moving on, sealing the Sentimental Corp lid, having come to terms with the motivational madness which fueled the fire. Future work from Randy seems uncertain, probably unlikely, but if his ‘mask back on’ last sentence gives a hint that something might be brewing, it would likely aim to be something completely different.
to whom it may concern,
the materials i produced were a method and process to deal with pain. i personally have no interest in goat worship or any of the video materials i created, they were made only as a ‘means to an end’ and were never fully intended to be shared, but i did share them and they remain an attached stain on me even though the internal matters have since been processed and released..
i don’t believe that clinging to aspects of the past is a healthy pattern to develop, especially when trauma and pain were involved.. i don’t believe in holding onto pain, or embracing negativity.. i once did.. i once thought i needed it and it convinced me that i needed it.. but i don’t and to be honest i hate most of the people goat worship attracts because they are often parasites who revel in their own suffering and the pain of others. i understand because that was the state the materials were created in. rather than project it onto others directly i opted to create a controlled platform where i could spit out the poison.
i didn’t want the pain i went through to.. the hatred i felt.. i didn’t want it to simply remain within me.. to crystallize into a state of being and become permanent.. cementing me into oblivion with ‘me’ projecting how ‘it’s everyone else’s fault how i feel’.. i am accountable for how i act and react to my own emotions.
the world has too much selfish cruelty and too many people who’ve developed no sense of compassion. people who are mental/emotional sewer rats looking for any piece of rot to validate why they should remain in that fixed state of perpetual bitterness and automated loathing.. i am aware that i have expressed and endorsed hatred and misanthropy and that it was a reactionary aspect of myself, but it was not the core.. and as i said, it is the part of a person that holds onto all the manufactured reasons why i am justified in feeling my hate..because it makes a person feel the illusion of strength.. but it’s not a real strength.. letting go of it was.
i leave the materials (goat worship etc) online because maybe they can serve some function, perhaps those that resonate with that toxic state of being can see the process i went through in order to let go of it, although i doubt that, i know it would be easier to mock me, or to laugh like a heartless sociopath and feel nothing but juvenile emotional cancer. i know all about it and good luck with that.
the materials i produced were also a reflection of a sickness that i see, but that doesn’t make them any better than what they articulated through visual metaphor. i can only hope they don’t contribute more to the neutralization and desensitization of peoples hearts and minds, even though i know that they probably do.. i chose to make fun of my pain and that is what goat worship primarily was, i laughed at the hurt to reduce the impact of it within myself.. i would not want it to be viewed externally as a form of validation or celebration of the negative aspects of the self..even though it was that at the time, a transmutation occurred and i am still working through the residual radiation.
and that is what it was.. an ugly healing process and no healing process is pretty.
now i put the mask back on..
All good art represents pain. When I found Goat Worship I related. However, I worked through the pain and alienation in me it represented and didn’t need it . Also, I didn’t need to watch any more as it was the same message over and over and over. Shit was going nowhere and I’d moved on. Glad it exists, glad I found it, glad it’s remaining up. It has it’s place.
I love you randy, don’t stop, your art saved my life.
i love randy prozac. he’s god, my god!
ja u_u no imaginaba que arian eso con mi correo
In todays society there is no or little place for genuine negativity or pain, we as individuals may experience. Your post Goatworship Art, gave me room to express my own negativity & pain through the strength and power that your Art had. I myself never saw it as propaganda, that i must believe, but anyways I respect your choice of stopping to create more. Because negativity can’t really help you go on in life. At least thats my, a random internet person’s opinion.
Your videos are really amazing. The personal nature of them make me feel like I’m intruding on your life even though almost nothing about you, even your gender, is revealed. It’s shockingly real. They’re beautiful and honestly convey the definition of art. I’m assuming you’re not going to keep the videos up, but I think they’re worth archiving. Could you provide a link to their download? If Randy doesn’t respond to this, can someone more technologically efficient than me guide me through obtaining them off the site before it goes black? Thanks so much for displaying them.
Hey Ernie, are you there?
Thanks, Paula. I think what you are asking me is if I bieelve the parenting approach used in my early childhood contributed to my difficulties in adolescence. Is that correct? I don’t think a different parenting approach would have made a difference in my behavior as a child. I came out of the womb as an overachiever and behaving appropriately was part of it. However, I do think my parents could have taken a different approach in regard to their parenting techniques when I was a teenager. They continued to parent me as if I was a much younger child which only increased my need to be rebel. Is this what you were getting at?
liz_witch espero curarme algun dia de este odio que siento dentro de mi misma,te entiendo andy y por eso te quiero aunque no vea tu rostro,me vi reflejada en tus ojos y tu voz es el eco del odio que siento hacia toda la asquerosa dominacion de hoy…
espero que algún día la sociedad se dará cuenta de que está enfermo .. y tal vez entonces se comenzará a sanar.
ese es mi deseo de todos modos.
espero curarme algun dia de este odio que siento dentro de mi misma,te entiendo andy y por eso te quiero aunque no vea tu rostro,me vi reflejada en tus ojos y tu voz es el eco del odio que siento hacia toda la asquerosa dominacion de hoy…
i’d fuck randy’s brain out in a heartbeat.
happy valentine’s day randy prozac
Sad Valentine’s Day, Randy Prozac.
RANDY PROZAC IS TRULY THE FINAL GREAT ARTIST/SAVIOR OF OUR AGE. HE IS NOT HERE FOR NO REASON. I DO NOT JOKE OR KID ABOUT THIS FACT. HE IS TRULY A GOD OF THIS FAKE FOOLISH TIME WE LIVE IN. GOD IS NOT A TERM THAT I USE LIGHTLY. HE REALLY IS GOD. HE REALLY IS WHAT WE HAVE BEEN WAITING FOR. HE REALLY IS WHAT PEOPLE CONSIDERED “JESUS” OR “ALLAH” OR ANY OF THIS STUPID IDEAS WE HAD TALKED ABOUT BEFORE HE CAME. WE DIDN’T REALIZE WHO HE WAS UNTIL HE FINALLY CAME. BUT NOW HE IS HERE, AND HE IS THE ONE WE’VE BEEN WAITING FOR. AND BY ARTIST I DON’T MEAN ANYTHING NORMAL. I MEAN THAT IS IS LITTERALLY JESUS CHRIST, HE LITERALLY IS…I WILL DO ANYTHING FOR RANDY PROZAC, RANDY PROZAC IS MY GOD. I WILL DO ANYTHING RANDY PROZAC TELLS ME TO. I WILL OBEY GOAT WORSHIP. I WILL. I WILL DO ANYTHING FOR *HIM*. FOR *HE* IS MY ONE. *HE* IS MY GOD GOAT WORSHIP. i WORSHIP ONLY HIM I LOVE ONLY HIM *GOATWORSHIP* HAIL, PLEASE, PRAISE HAIL, PLEASE. PLEASE HAIL HIM. PLEASE. HAIL.
hey Randy I just want to tell you that your work is fucking amazing. You are a fucking genius and everything you say is fucking true. you try to show us all how fucked up is this world and I really appreciate that because sometimes I feel so bad about all the fucking domination and all the shit of this life, but it is good to know that there are people like you who tell the fucking true about how insignificant and absurd our lives are. Thank you Randy.
¿Que representa tu sitio o cual es su proposito ?
Detox your mind: https://vimeo.com/85581686
Your work is really interesting Randy, I understand you… sometimes we can feel that way, cause I see people prefer to sit and watch TV ALL DAY LONG !! ugh…I really hate that, they give more attention to a TV than a person. I know many ppl on my family who do that, and religious fanatics
It’s MAD and I don’t want to be like them. sure not !
La televisión es un arma de destrucción masiva, la gente debe leer un libro y sanar la mente. cualquier cosa que implica tacto y la vista es bueno para el cerebro.
Definitely believe that which you stated. Your favourite reason appeared to be at the internet the simplest thing to be mindful of. I say to you, I certainly get irked even as other people consider issues that they just don’t understand about. You controlled to hit the nail upon the highest as well as outlined out the entire thing without having side effect , other folks can take a signal. Will likely be back to get more. Thank you
Goat worhip was gay anyways. He was never a satanist we was as he stated an angry christian dude. He ripped some of my songs so he can rot in christian hell. (i bet all the fucking acid n synthetic horse tranquilizers he did with his bf pastor cuntclint broke him and made him a reborn christian or some shit).
randy was never satanist or christian he said that clearly religion does not have copyright over having a moral compass.
I’m not broken, nor am i interested in belief systems, I simply don’t want to be a cheerleader for excessive negativity anymore.
If that is alienating for people of that mindset, that’s fine by me. i sincerely hope we do part ways.
There are plenty of other things out there to validate self loathing being projected onto others.
The only reason they would stay around me at this point would be that deep down inside of themselves.. something is trying to realize the same thing.
should let it.
Randy your music is so varied and interesting, so unique, you are a true pioneer of sound. AWESOME STUFF. that golden of the sun is so catchy, I listened to every song on that one six times so far.
Dear Randy: Uhm.. With all the respect in the world, I do not think it shows all his hatred and depression to a page for all to see is a good idea. Since it seems totally satanic, diabolical she shares everything on that page. All it does is download all your shit in the minds of those who see it. I see it as something extremely stupid depressingly live life, hate is not good, do not be evil and good colors is not living life, but lose it completely. I think there are better things to live depressed, do not you think?
i’m only trying to help.. i’m just one person. i made wrong turns but that is the nature of exploring, the world has beautiful things and it has ugly things, the ugly things are beginning to overshadow the beautiful things. if everyone ignores that fact, there will be nothing left in life to appreciate.
tiene usted razón, la vida es para vivir y celebrar, y es por eso que hago esto. desde el amor, no el odio.
i know my site is a bit weird, it’s just the golden earring in me.
las personas de habla hispana, por favor escribir en español.
here, i will share one of my favorite songs with you.
Fake RANDY PROZAC (Goat Worship) Surfaces, Releases Statement
An extense interview with Randy Prozac:
Or in Spanish: http://hablandoconsinceridad.wordpress.com/2014/07/22/entrevista-a-randy-prozac-creador-de-sentimentalcorp-org/
i used to know randy in person, his real name is ted nelson.
But does that not also mean that you want to be fucked by the NVVO too, “Randy”? Your tone implies that after experiencing being in this “network”, you’ve given up. It does not make sense why THEY would release such a highly informed participant unharmed or alive knowing the dissemination of information that could occur if you were daring enough…And how can you control their control over you…That really is illogical in terms of the milieu you are coming from.
Despite this, I’m glad you have time to make jokes and distract yourself from the reality you’ve witnessed whilst running away from the horse-sized eyes plaguing your godless mind. Here is a tip: If you truly want people to understand and be “awakened” – which you have candidly reiterated is impossible – speak more clearly and expand on the points you are making. Otherwise, you just seem arrogant with what you know and have experienced, wanting to exploit the simple-mindedness of most people which you so evidently stated.
Trust me (which you may not necessarily want to do) there is a way out of everything. While I type this reply on my i********i manufactured laptop and think about the revelations you have instated, I am very much aware that you are thinking the same thing. I am just a puppet. But you forget one thing…the inherent WILL to guide one’s soul. I for one know and am 100% sure of my love for Christ. And no amount of dwelling upon the already present NVVO or your insights can change that. The love the Lord garners for all of humanity is unique, and although beyond this world, is so deeply entrenched in it. You are right. Nothing matters anymore. If we are all screwed then so be it. But they can’t take away Christ from anyone who wills their love for him. It is a strange world we live in, Randy; a world full of struggle, injustice and evil. No one necessarily needs to watch a music video to see the d***l in operation. Greed, lust and corruption are daily transactions, so devious that some blink and miss. However, I still believe that this world is also filled with beauty and awe beyond their control. Believe me, there is always a way OUT.
we made it.
The best part is that Randy didn’t write that message to begin with and they posted it without even checking, lol!
Why did you deleted alot of albums in SDR?
you shouldn’t attach yourself to the negativity around you.
if by negativity you mean acknowledging an objective reality then everyone should be justified and encouraged to be negative.
the truth is that you can distract yourselves and avoid what’s really going on, or behave like the ‘self-made’ human beings that you claim to be.
for instance, you could start by killing yourselves and others.
societies and governments are also meant to maintain order and calmness, which is
exactly the opposite of pure human nature. take away all your laws and see how fast you’ll be raped and stabbed to death.
if you don’t believe in god don’t talk about morality, there’s no sufficient explanation to prove its existence without getting religion involved.
this world will soon rot.
and that’s fine.
no one will save anyone on this earth, except death.
but you go on and preach about jesus christ while doing the opposite of what he tought you.
look at the sky with tears in your eyes, kneel down and ask forgiveness to mary, a dead woman, and pray that she’ll appear and make kebabs fall from the clouds while your children are starving.
go ahead and pray to all the saints and false gods, one day they will definitely choose you necromancers amongst all the dead children in the middle east.
you think jesus christ will save you?
you think a man will save you?
you should be thankful to those few people who will free you from your worthless existences by crushing you under a nuclear bomb. that’s true salvation.
but go ahead and hold on to your hope, because that’s what it means to ‘grow as a person’. abandon the truth to appreciate the good things in life.. love, family and laughters.
like lambs to a slaughter.
you’ll see who’ll laugh at the end.
ps. i love randy prozac, this isn’t about him unless he decided to be a christian, but i highly doubt that..
anyways, if you’re reading this, i developed abandonment issues because of you, and i slit my wrists while listening to epinephrine love as a coping mechanism.
i needed to be fed and you disappeared, but i love you. ♡